Winter camp (clayton) 2008

I was meant to share this after winter camp, but I thought I could just wait until I shared in the retreat camp.

Winter camp for me is like a stopping point, after 3 yeas in OCF, I must say that it is really tired to server in ministry , together with studies, sometime I just feel very stressful, and when you got too busy with stuff, it is very easy to forget the reason behind of your doing.

This year winter camp is like me driving a car, running out of petrol and needed a refuel, till now, this verse is still always in my mind:

Psalm 27:4

One thing I ask of the Lord, this is what I seek:

that I may dwell in the house of the Lord

all the days of my life,

to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to seek him in his temple.

I guess God spoke to me in this verse about three things:

- If God is standing right in front of me now, and grant me anything I ask for, the first thing that came to mind could have been: please make me the greatest person in the world, or something like that. I remember when I first led a bible study, it was so difficult for me, and I kept trying to be someone else because I just felt that other people is always better than me.

but in verse 4, "One thing I ask for, this is what I seek" . it just makes me realised that is not about who I want to be, but What I am seeking . The best leader should be one that can be yourself and influence others with the real you inside. God make everyone of us unique. All I need is to dwell in the house of the Lord and understand His way.

- "that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life" .........This is my last semester, I do not want it to be the end of my christian walk. To dwell in the house of the Lord all days of my life, not part of life.

- "to gaze upon the beauty of Lord"...when i am too busy in the ministry, we just forget that God is always there for us, and we become too lazy to seek Him.

for the rest of my semester, I just going to try my best ( in my studies, my project, ocf etc), and believe that He has got the best plan for me to maximise my life and time.

"Your name high" Hillsongs 2008